I’m not sure if I should write this post or not… I may remove it in a few days. So if you get a chance to read it, there must be a reason for it.
Last year, I was visited by my Star Family with more frequency than ever. They provided resolution to some things about my Earth Family that bothered me for many years (like how I shouldn’t concern myself with their problems or fixing the family karma since I wasn’t *really* one of them – I just needed a conduit to incarnate at the right time to fulfill my destiny). They also seemed to be checking in on me, just to make sure that I was ok.
In September of 2019, after my stepdad died of Stage IV lung cancer, I had already come to the conclusion – for the second time in my life – that the pursuit of material things was really a load of B.S. and an external focus made me incredibly unhappy. All of the struggle to get the barn renovated and the yoga studio up and running ended up with the local township being like, “OH, HEY … BTW… you’re not up to code and there’s this whole Preserved Farm thing to think about too…” So everything I was trying to create got shut down almost as quickly as it started.
I also noticed towards the end of 2019 that I began to feel ‘abandoned’ at times during my healing work. Telepathic messages were coming to me during meditation and in my sleep that I was bringing too many spirits into this plane during breathwork sessions and other classes – spirits that didn’t have the best interests of this planet at heart. I felt my ‘powers’ (siddhis) decreasing and I got the message from my Spirit Guides that I shouldn’t keep doing the work that I was doing. In fact, maybe I was traumatizing others. And so things played out the way they did. After it all shut down, I resolved to go back to my solitary pursuits of making art, blogging, traveling, etc. Maybe that was my guides’ way of preparing me for social distancing in advance!
By October of 2019 – after finally giving up on the hope that I could ever make anything happen here at Drager Farms – I decided to visit the Sivananda ashram in the Bahamas for the first time in about 5 years, to reconnect with my true mission in this lifetime: enlightenment. One night as I sat in meditation, I heard the message: “They [the Sivananda organization] are no longer in our favour.” WTF? I definitely noticed the organization cutting corners and not bringing in the big names, but were they/are they really in trouble? The truth is yet to be revealed on that one.
Then just recently, the founder of Kundalini yoga, Yogi Bhajan, was accused of inappropriate sexual behavior in some kind of #MeTooKundalini movement. And the fear of COVID-19 seems to be causing many to forego their attendance at Sat Nam Fest in May – which may lead to the bankruptcy of the Sat Nam Foundation. The whole future of that tradition seems to be hanging in the balance, right along with that of the Catholic church.
Wow… I’m not really sure where I’m going with all of this. Just so many disparate whispers over the last several years seeming to come together and too much to think about as life as we know it seems to be crumbling into pieces.
And then there’s this: The age of Aquarius ends the age of Grace
Have the gods truly left us in this battle? Are we really on our own? Have we proven that we’re hopeless once again, like so many other times before?
All I can say is: Stay strong. Stay centered. Meditate and keep up with your practice. Ask for divine assistance each and every day. And I totally understand why caves were the preferred place to achieve enlightenment!
I hope that all of you are staying well and at peace.