Why I’m Taking COVID-19 Seriously

After many weeks of downplaying the latest corona virus as yet another “flu epidemic” like the swine flu or bird flu, I decided to check out the astrological perspective regarding this most recent pandemic. Turns out, it’s in the cards for humanity during this particular point in time and space. Like Marley says, “None of them can stop the time.”

Check out why this “black swan event” was set to occur this year: https://astrostyle.com/astrology-and-the-coronavirus/

And how the New York Times parrots that astrological prediction: https://www.nytimes.com/2020/02/26/opinion/coronavirus-panic.html

Here’s to hoping that we’re all wrong!

Near the Ides of March 2020

I’m not sure if I should write this post or not… I may remove it in a few days. So if you get a chance to read it, there must be a reason for it.

Last year, I was visited by my Star Family with more frequency than ever. They provided resolution to some things about my Earth Family that bothered me for many years (like how I shouldn’t concern myself with their problems or fixing the family karma since I wasn’t *really* one of them – I just needed a conduit to incarnate at the right time to fulfill my destiny). They also seemed to be checking in on me, just to make sure that I was ok.

In September of 2019, after my stepdad died of Stage IV lung cancer, I had already come to the conclusion – for the second time in my life – that the pursuit of material things was really a load of B.S. and an external focus made me incredibly unhappy. All of the struggle to get the barn renovated and the yoga studio up and running ended up with the local township being like, “OH, HEY … BTW… you’re not up to code and there’s this whole Preserved Farm thing to think about too…” So everything I was trying to create got shut down almost as quickly as it started.

I also noticed towards the end of 2019 that I began to feel ‘abandoned’ at times during my healing work. Telepathic messages were coming to me during meditation and in my sleep that I was bringing too many spirits into this plane during breathwork sessions and other classes – spirits that didn’t have the best interests of this planet at heart. I felt my ‘powers’ (siddhis) decreasing and I got the message from my Spirit Guides that I shouldn’t keep doing the work that I was doing. In fact, maybe I was traumatizing others. And so things played out the way they did. After it all shut down, I resolved to go back to my solitary pursuits of making art, blogging, traveling, etc. Maybe that was my guides’ way of preparing me for social distancing in advance!

By October of 2019 – after finally giving up on the hope that I could ever make anything happen here at Drager Farms – I decided to visit the Sivananda ashram in the Bahamas for the first time in about 5 years, to reconnect with my true mission in this lifetime: enlightenment. One night as I sat in meditation, I heard the message: “They [the Sivananda organization] are no longer in our favour.” WTF? I definitely noticed the organization cutting corners and not bringing in the big names, but were they/are they really in trouble? The truth is yet to be revealed on that one.

Then just recently, the founder of Kundalini yoga, Yogi Bhajan, was accused of inappropriate sexual behavior in some kind of #MeTooKundalini movement. And the fear of COVID-19 seems to be causing many to forego their attendance at Sat Nam Fest in May – which may lead to the bankruptcy of the Sat Nam Foundation. The whole future of that tradition seems to be hanging in the balance, right along with that of the Catholic church.

Wow… I’m not really sure where I’m going with all of this. Just so many disparate whispers over the last several years seeming to come together and too much to think about as life as we know it seems to be crumbling into pieces.

And then there’s this: The age of Aquarius ends the age of Grace

Have the gods truly left us in this battle? Are we really on our own? Have we proven that we’re hopeless once again, like so many other times before?

All I can say is: Stay strong. Stay centered. Meditate and keep up with your practice. Ask for divine assistance each and every day. And I totally understand why caves were the preferred place to achieve enlightenment!

I hope that all of you are staying well and at peace.


Why I Decided to Drastically Cut Back on Social Media

In September of 2019, I watched my stepdad (Joe) take some of his last breaths on Earth. His cause of death was Stage IV lung cancer. I witnessed others die while volunteering at hospice, so I certainly didn’t think that my stepfather’s death would have any more of an impact than the ones I already saw. After all, Joe and I were never really close.

But I was wrong.

Watching Joe die, going to the funeral, and the whole grieving process brought up the loss of my grandmother and the separation with most of my family that occurred due to her death. It brought up a sense of sadness that I never really knew this man that was the closest thing to a dad I ever had. And of course, it brought up all the painful memories that this man had given me through his years of addiction and abuse.

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Equinox +

September 22, 2019. The Fall Equinox. It feels like a pivotal moment in time, in my life. I want to change my way of being, the way I’m living, what I’m doing, and what I’m consuming on a day-to-day basis.

As summer moves into fall (and then inevitably into winter), I feel the need to pull back, to reflect, and become more introspective. Outwardly, I am also being somewhat forced to do this in ways I could not have imagined a few short months ago.

Nathan and I have been trying so hard to make it all work here at Drager Farms. Trying this thing and that thing and one thing after another, in the hopes that *some* thing will work. I sense that Nathan feels obligated to his grandfather and his great-grandfather to continue the family legacy, so I try to help in any way that I can – knowing full well that this farming life is not necessarily my path – but I want to support his happiness and his path. But god damn.. it is so SO hard.

I come from a family of farmers too, rooted in West Virginia. My grandmother always said, “Farming’s a hard life, but it’s a good life.” I hear her words so often lately because I now completely understand what she meant. And maybe now, in today’s economic and political times, her statement is 1,000x more true.

I had no idea that the government could tell you what you can and cannot do on a “privately owned” land. It seems like the more Nathan and I try to become independent entrepreneurs, living off the land in a sustainable (and hopefully exemplary) fashion, the more the ‘powers that be’ look over our shoulders and shake their fingers at us like, “Uh, uh, uh… We see you… Now you *know* that’s not what good children should do until WE say it’s ok.”

I just.. I don’t.. even. I don’t. know.

So I ask: Do you actually KNOW what it means to be a farmer today and why things are the way they are with GMO corn and soy everywhere you look and concentrated animal feeding operations as the status quo? Please get ready to dive in deep……………….

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Could This Be the Reason Why the Mayan Calendar Ended in 2012?

So I FINALLY made it to Belize to see the Mayan ruins. (And many other things that were totally unBELIZEable!) One of the most interesting things? A discussion with one of our shuttle drivers about how he could no longer tell time by the sun. !!! He said that now, what used to be 12:30 pm according to the sun, was now actually 1:30 pm.

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On Witnessing Birth and Death

Divine Force, Primal Force: to You I Bow. Rising Up, Divine Mother: to You I Bow.

Where to begin with this one? I guess I will start by saying that I — as many of us have — had the blessed honor of welcoming in the embodiment of the Divine and seeing its exit from this plane on more than one occasion. Is there any honor greater than these, to see a soul birth into Being or to see a soul birth into Spirit?

I was quite young and naive when my own daughter was born. But I remember how special the moment was when she took in her first breath and how quiet she became merely by being held by the person that gave her Life. My eyes still tear up at the thought of it. It was truly love at first sight. And I am continually amazed at the unconditional love I feel for my daughter to this day.

After that, there were many years that were touched by death, but I chose to avoid the finality of it. Illnesses, addiction, and old age took my friends, family, and lovers, but I chose to keep my distance from such a dark and dire subject.
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Once the soul awakens

Once the soul awakens, the search begins and you can never go back. From then on, you are inflamed with a special longing that will never again let you linger in the lowlands of complacency and partial fulfillment. The eternal makes you urgent. You are loath to let compromise or the threat of danger hold you back from striving toward the summit of fulfillment. –John O’Donohue, Anam Cara

Lines from the Air

Clouds like a laughing Pan,
Lying back with pipes in hand.

Smiling sharks. Selfies of orangutans.

Berry fizz
Orange swamis

Days filled with blue skies, ocean waves, drifting.

What is Real?
Where do I begin and where does it all end?

Brahman in a million parts

Shattered stars
Broken dreams
Love gone wrong

Traveling across the desert sands, a million years, a million miles gone by…